CONSTANT INTERNAL CONVERSATION (VI)

Solitude and loneliness

The thin line of difference

I never found a companion more compatible than solitude

And never found a stranger more antithetical than loneliness

Solitude is pleasure and loneliness the pain

In solitude I try to find myself and in loneliness the others

Finally I understood the difference

Enjoying solitude

Trying to know myself, spending quality time with myself!

Though I was surrounded by my family and friends, but I was always with a constant internal conversation with myself. There were times when I wanted to be alone, away from everyone, just to be with me, to share my thoughts with myself, to cry my heart out. Just cry without any sympathy, without any console and without any advices. And in that time I used to pen down my thoughts, my feelings in poetry. That was my solace. 

(I)

Here I cry and weep

In corner, away from everyone

With no one to listen

And here I laugh,

Louder and louder

So everyone could hear.

(II)

And I want to scream

Shout to this world

What I am going through

Want to tell everyone my plight

Let everyone listen

And laugh at me

And suffer with me

And share my agony

 

And I want to scream

Shout to this world

Cry for help

That I want to come out of this

Help me! Help me! Help me!

And share my suffering.

Instead of holding back my tears I gave myself permission to cry.